What would you do?
What would you do? What should I do?
It’s that time of year when I start thinking about the Block Lotto for next year. But instead of being able to think about themes and blocks, I am distracted by the fact that visitors and downloads are up, but participation is the activity for which this site was created is down. I hoped to create a community and make friends, but the only interactions I have had with members of this “community” in the last few months are to argue things like whether using two different colors in a block where the rules say two different fabrics that are the same color should be OK, because “percentage-wise” someone else made a block that you think is more rule-breaking than the block that you made.
I feel utterly disrespected.
I feel that I have failed to create interesting blocks that you want to make, that I have failed to create block directions and guidelines that are understandable.
I am personally at an all-time low in my life and MY experience here is no longer an escape, nor support, nor friendship–just more rejection, more dismissal, more of the message that I am not enough. I guess it goes without saying that I have failed to create community or friendships here, too.
I will publish guidelines and block patterns for the rest of the year. I will contiue to play “hall monitor” for those that think the rules shouldn’t apply to them. I will share the rows of my sampler quilt. Beyond that … I cannot say what the future of Blocklotto.com holds.